Life is hard – really hard.

We all have times in our live when we feel that we are alone.  We may not lose faith that He lives – or that He cares for others; but we lose hope that He cares for us.  Others may be important; just not me.  Such feelings may be fleeting; or they may endure for hours, days, weeks, months, or even years.

It was during a time when I was contemplating this, that I wrote the following.  If you, or another, is feeling such hopelessness, please share: you are not alone; you are never alone.  Only One was truly ever alone; and He trod that winepress in His loneliness so that we do not have to – even though it may feel otherwise.  How I long for the day, when His ever-present grace is revealed; when I see just how much I have meant to Him.  Although it doesn’t always seem like it during this life, that day will come for me; and it will come for you.

 

Pleadings

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My soul is lost; I wander.

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The wilderness that is life

Has surpassed my strength; defeated me

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The dull ache envelopes my heart:

Unrelenting; untiring with its grasp.

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I once pled for mercy;

For relief from daily pains.

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But heaven’s doors were closed;

It’s curtains drawn, no light leaking to my succour.

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I see Him rescue souls around me;

Once wondered why no mercy was shown to me.

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Now I know:

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All souls are valued, but mine

All those who try are worthy, but me

All who are alone are noticed, but me

All children are loved, but me.

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I am destined to carry the aching emptiness of my soul

Throughout my life; unending through eternity.

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Too numb for tears,

And beyond sorrow.

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………

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I wander; seeking the lost; finding each one

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The wilderness, that is mortality’s test

Surpasses all; but Me

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Your heart’s ache once blanketed Mine;

Hell’s depths swallowing Me; for your sake.

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Mercy’s pleas ever heard

My tears of blood unfailing.

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Celestial light hides not;

Nor is it covered.

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Wings of grace hover in protective love

Ever there; though rarely seen.

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Please know:

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All souls are valued: in your emptiness, especially yours

All are worthy: in your weakness, especially you

All are noticed: in your loneliness, especially you

All are loved: in your pain, especially you.

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Your courage to continue life’s journey is seen above

Though you believe your offering meagre; it is all you have; Heaven’s reward, all I have.

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If you are too worn for tears; I will weep for you

If too battered for sorrow; I will bear it in your place.

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Though you feel not My strength, it is sufficient

Though reminders of eternity bring you no comfort; know, My child, that peace will fill your soul.

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They are the scars in My hands that will hold you in that day;

When tears of joy will streak our faces.

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And you will know only then that I have ever been present.

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By Jeffrey Collyer